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I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight

I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight

Tonight was the first night our lips touched.

They pressed together and I watched

The world spin out from under us.

I remember the whirlwind of lips and tongues

And saliva within seconds.

Tonight was the first time your hands met

My breasts and neck and torso.

It was the first time I gave myself to you,

Or to anyone.

Tonight, I gave you all of me,

And I just died in your arms tonight,

All of the girl I once was disappeared

Into the woman I was becoming,

Lying naked by your side.

The jeep was not big enough to hold

Our naked bodies and sweating palms,

And your heart kept beating like

War drums.

Tonight, I sacrificed my body to you

And let you teach me

How martyrs die for their cause.

Tonight I bled like a martyr,

Draining away the only virginity I knew

For a love that I know could never

Possibly come true. 

-Seraphine 

Framed

Framed

I pour out of picture frames

Like liquid luck.

The amount of time I spend

Staring a photographs

Trying to reach through

The glass and pull out memories

Tells me I’m not ready

To be loved again.

Pictures capturing every moment

Of laughter and love,

But never of tears and broken endings.

If I were a picture, framed and hung

On the walls of my future house,

My skin would be filmy and behind glass,

And when I broke,

I would shatter into pieces,

Be torn in half.

It amazes me how a photograph

Can physically be everything

I emotionally am,

But I never look sad or broken

Within the frame.

If I was behind the glass,

I would make myself ooze

From the film and squeeze around

The surfaces of the glass and wood

And pour out the edges,

Dripping memories and forgotten stories

On the floor beneath where I hung.

When my family walked past me,

I would get stuck in the bottoms

Of their shoes

And travel the world knowing

Nothing but their bare soles. 

-Seraphine 

Misfit With Messy Hair

Misfit With Messy Hair

She told me that I act like I have my shit together.

She told me that she thought I was a senior.

She told me that she thought I had style.

She told me that I am doing okay.

I did not have the heart to tell her the truth.

The truth about how hard it is to shower

Because I have to see my body naked and flawed.

The truth about how hard it is to eat

Because eating makes me feel fat and crazy.

The truth about how hard it is to sleep

Because my mind is working too hard.

She has so much faith in my ability

To not be seen as worthless.

She has a dream for me that I don’t

Even know how to begin living.

She looks up to me and I struggle

With seeing what she sees.

I’m a half assed misfit with messy hair

And yellowing teeth.

I’m overweight and drowning in greasy foods

And too much caffeine.

I love poetry more than sex because sometimes

Words mean more than actions.

I never deserved to be seen as shiny

And squeaky clean and beautiful.

I am too blind to see it myself.

But she sees beauty where I see disaster

And I guess it’s natural to love

The people content with being severely unloved. 

-Seraphine 

Snow White

Snow White

Soft white covers the harsh underneath,

The dead of the world buried

Beneath the blanket of something new,

Clean, and beautiful.

I know that when the snow comes

It will stay for a few months,

And in that time turn from white

To brown to black to melted slush.

It reminds me of my flesh.

Covering my dirty veins

And all the scars keep sneaking

Back up to the surface,

Tarnishing my skin.

Dirt stained and bruised,

My snowy arms and legs

Turn into slushy messes,

Unclean and ugly.

I want to stay pure white,

Unblemished and unstained,

But living has turned me gray,

Washed away my ability

To look attractive and appealing,

And I know that the next boy

Who tries to hold me

Will notice my cold hands,

Try to warm me up,

And end up melting me down

To nothing but droplets

Of water falling down into the sink.

I am too used to the cold

To know that his warmth isn’t a threat.

The snow and the sun were never taught

How to get along. 

-Seraphine 

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